View from the Empire State Building

I went to New York City! But this blog actually isn’t about that.

I’ve been back about a week, but haven’t been in the mindset to blog about anything. Most importantly, I had some much needed catch-up time with the husband and kids. But I’ve also been a bit stressed and thinking about things and my mind was too all over the place to write about it all but I’ve talked with a couple good friends (a HUGE thank you for listening to my craziness!) and I think I’m a bit more centered now and I can actually manage to get some thoughts out that make sense. Uh… well, maybe anyway. Reading back over this paragraph, I’m doubtful. Oh well, let’s proceed.

You see, the thing is… I decided to go back to college. I intend to get my Associate’s in Radiology Technology. And since it’s been about 12 years since I’ve gone to college and I only ever completed one semester, I’ll be pretty much starting back at the beginning (I haven’t taken my placement test though so we’ll see what I can skip. I don’t have super high expectations for myself. It turns out you just get dumber as you get older. It’s crap!)

So I’m facing new things. I’m facing being the 30 year old in classes full of 18 year olds. I’m facing having to actually pay for school and for daycare while I’m in school. I’m facing two or three years of getting my general requirements. After that I’m facing half-moving to Elko for a couple of years once I get accepted into the Radiology program because all the classes and clinic hours have to be completed there from what I understand.

Yes, I am a bit stressed, a bit nervous. But I’m ready to do this. It’s something that I’ve always talked about doing and I kept saying I’d wait til the kids were in school the full day but… why wait? Other women can have kids and full time jobs AND still manage to go to school.. so why can’t I, when all I do is sit at home anyway?

So, there’s that.

NYC was beyond awesome. Had the best food, saw the coolest things, and I want to move there effective immediately. Honestly I can’t even really say that much about it because whatever I say won’t do it justice. I am so glad I went, it was the best vacation EVER.

Also, my friend Denise? I already knew I loved her from talking online/on the phone but meeting her in person re-confirmed that. I still have some people that react negatively when they hear I’m meeting/have met “online friends”. I prefer to think of it this way: when you live in a town, especially a small town, your ‘pool’ of people to draw friends from is pretty limited. (Not saying that there aren’t awesome people here because there totally are. Just… interests and personalities differ.) But when you have pretty much the whole WORLD of people to interact with, the chances you’ll find someone whose personality meshes perfectly with yours is much greater.

So, I had a great time in NYC but I realized that I am not a very independent person and I hate that about myself. I thought a lot (especially on the plane ride because what else is there to do other than breathe the same air as other people and drink tiny plastic cups of ice water) and came to the conclusion that I need to stop talking or dreaming about becoming the person I want to be and actually DO something about it.